Thinking like a defeatist, I am fantasizing my life with a career in finance. CMT, Financial Analyst, Advisor.. These may not be bad things to pursue.. But they are not what I want to be doing. I want to be trading!

I know that trading successfully is the most amazing and rewarding experience in life.

It really is.. It makes you feel amazing pulling off a successful trade and making absurd amounts of money..

That's why I'm going to figure it out and do whatever it takes.

What it takes right now is being patient and waiting for the market to come to me. The macro data is fucked and this choppy whippy action is only indicativeof disagreement.

Can it go higher in this Fed/Citadel backed bastardisation of Capitism? Sure, but despite price levitating, the money flow has been negative as More Bears are being converted every day..

Waiting patiently, Sooner or later My luck will swing round.. 🍀

The entire market is being singlehandedly propped up by AAPL.

Macroeconomic data worsens every week. US Macro at 6 year Lows!

I got squeezed out of my oil short, yet despite falling US rig count, supply, the largest glut there has ever been grows larger every day as the Saudis slowly ramp their production..

Look at todays Volume... Not much enthusiasm to buy ATHs, but the algos don't care in the Stock Market Matrix.

It's tough to force  anything in life...
Fate? Are we doing exactly as we are meant to do?
The unquenchable thirst for improvement, Why do we want what we can't have? Is it ever as good as the fantasy?
The market does what it does. You can attempt to explain & rationalize the movements, the emotion of the day but it defies logic...
So how do you get ahead?
I guess the obvious 'answer' is to exploit the technicals. Analyze Trend, Survey Conditions, etc... 
If only it was as easy as looking at a chart!
Sometimes a strategy works. Indeed a necessity, with no plan you are hapless and lost..
Trades go awry, plans get changed, conditions shuffle so quickly: On top of the clouds, next thing you know you're upside down.
You have to stay true to yourself, live for yourself, trade for yourself. Indeed the only life that matters is your own for it is the only life you know.
So you take it by the day, navigating obstacles as they come.
Sometimes you will dodge, sometimes stumble, sometimes thrive.
If you are moving forward, you are doing it right.

How frustrating is this market? The grind, day after day. Im trying to swing this when all its doing is chopping around, up, down, up, down.. a lot of chop, not much progress...

The uptrend in the dollar is still very much in tact.. China & Europe are blowing up, skyrocketing to the moon. QE is magic on stock prices.. The economic data worsens every week. Record Saudi Oil Production. So the Bulls rally, the magic hand gaps us higher at all psychologically important levels..

This is going to play out as I have predicted eventually, given enough time.. It is a pity nobody can predict the future because in a world of uncertainty patience wears thin...