Stuck In A Rut

I still can't get ahead. My account is hovering near it's ATL. I caught a pop in KC that took me up a bit and then caught a drop in KC that took me down again...
This endless chop and grind is killing me. I can't seem to get ahead.
I want to catch a big move but it's not happening. It's all grind and drift.
Give and take times infinity. 
​I do not understand why the Bear cannot get it done?
Daytrading isn't working. I will make a little bit of money for a few days only to give it all back & more in one bad day...
The back & forth is brutal. The whipsaws drive me insane.
I'm ready to go back to school and find a real job. Trading isn't working out. Deflation isn't happening. The market isn't going down. It goes down only enough to suck me in and then it proceeds to knife me again and again and again.
I can't take it for much longer.  I can't afford to keep doing this and wasting my life in the casino.
I have to go back to school and find a real career before it is too late. 
Trading is the dream but unfortunately it's just not working out.
I need to find a better way to make money.

You son of a bitch market. Crash or take me out already.

Endless Teasing. Bear Must Defend Here

Magic Ratio seems to be holding in deflation but why can't the Bear make a move that holds?

I need to catch a big futures swing. That's the only way I'm getting out of this.
Daytrading is one step forward/ two steps back...

Japan is not ok. How in the world does America stay so strong with the rest of the world so weak?